Venting.

since the last time i was here i had an emotional breakdown.
my phone was stolen
my ipod was stolen
im chronically broke
school is a bitch
college is a bitch
shit aint going as planned
all my friends going through shit
i didnt try out for the brave new voices slam team
i cant ask for anything including coachella
it's finals week and i cant even get the energy or concentration to study.
FUCK.
and i gotta shitload of other problems that are fucking with me that i would never tell
the other stuff i can deal with the things that i would never tell are whats bothering me the most.
keeping me up at night
im a great bullshitter
the best.
i can bullshit everyone but myself
i was looking through a lot of my poems there all so sad and depressing.
thats my problem im too nice and i put others before me
now i got all these emotionally needy fuckers always calling me when they going through shit
its really exhausting carrying your problems and other people problems around.
i wonder if something happened to me who would really give a fuck
and i mean not like that general sadness just cause you feel bad or feeling bad cause im not able to be your personal therapist but lfeeling bad cause you genuinelly loved me
dont get me wrong i love my real friends (yall know who yall are) but sometimes man i dont know about the rest of these fools everything is fake and everything burns.
i need to leave,
get out,
go by myself somewhere
for a minute
i honestly need to get away
my mom is pissing me off, royally.
im sensitive every little bit of everything hurts

im goin to therapy tomorrow the shit i'd never tell is what imma tell the therapist hopefully that'll help me feel better.

-signed off