Embarassment 101

Usher |MTV Music

Wow this made me bust a 2 a day,never have i done 2 post in 1 day.Yeah Ush thought we forgot about this.Woah this has got to be embarassing. I didnt even know Usher was out when he was this young, apparently its on the Poetic Justice soundtrack?! LMAO at him dancing oh so very hard. Ahhhh the 90's your incredible cheesyness and bagy bright clothes will never be replaced.
=D

DO THE D.A.N.C.E.

I think Im gonna dance during winter break. I dont want to be a dancer, but its something for me to do besides sitting home eating while i make plans to hang out with friends that never work out. I have a whole bunch of bad shit that runs in my family and i need to get healthy and stay that way. Dancing is the best way for me to exercise cause it doesn't feel like exercise and i actually like doing it. There was a time in my life where all i did was dance omg i was gonna be a professional dancer couldnt tell me nothing. Now its not that serious but im pretty much gonna do it. My grandma said she would pay for my classes. =)

Well heres a link to this dance that i think is so pretty

I Love That Song Too

ttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2OrkBng3no

Heartless

So alot of you may are on this all guys are dirt "if i were a boy" crap. Honestly thats all it is to me' Crap. I know plenty of girls that just run over guys. A guy will be so good to them and they continue to pick the jerks. Its so annoying when people generalize things and thats with anything. Its like saying all black people can dance or all white people are rich. I hate when girls say all guys are dogs cause thats so not true. Now im not tryna make it seem like guys arent jerks some are just like some girls are. But it especially annoys me when a girl does the same shit a guy does and now she like a soooper Bitch. Take for example in Kanye West Heartless "I know i did some things but thats the old me" or Ghostface Killer feat. Neyo Back Like That "See what i did was wack but you dont get a nigga back like that" Like Skrrr hold up it is okay for you to do whatever you want but when a girl does something she heartless and cold.Double Standards. I think guys all have this idea that women are supposed to be all conserved and shit. Now im not one of those girls whos like I can do anything a man can and all that bullshit, and I would have no problem following a man thats worth following. "On that independent shit trade it all for a husbad and some kids" But im not gonna be quiet and cook and clean and not do what i want when i know dang well hes out doing what he wants. Just like im not gonna say all guys are dogs. Why can't we all admit we ain't shit and move on with it,lol. I dont know its just never that serious with me. Fuck It and cry two tears in a Bucket.

"Bitch if you 40 years old and you still talking about niggas aint shit it must be something about your pussy thats attracting aint shit niggas"-Katt Williams

PS. Happy Belated Thanksgiving how about we emphasize the Thank part and not the mass murder of Indians =)

Weekend Love

Friday

school then hair salon this

to that

Saturday

Chelsea's dinner party had fun her friends are cool beans

im always smiley

i like this one


Sunday

No pictures sorry really good day though went to church Silvana came. Then Jett Rag. Then back to my house tried on clothes conversated and watched movies.


All in All
A
Good
Productive
Weekend

What I Got

I Like Colors.

I Like Black And White.

I Like Shoes





So those of you who know me know i like pictures and i like editing them even more. So heres a few of my creations. =)

p.s. umm on that last post i may have exagerated a little bit for dramatic effect. What can i say when im angry i tend to do that. My life isnt that sucky its actually pretty good. But i am alway busy and tired and never realy have time to talk on the phone i didnt exagerate that part lol. Just wanted to clear the air

Pissed me Off

Im so mad right now.

My parents upset me Theyre on this bullshit talking about how im underworked and i dont do shit which is complete bullshit i do so much. Everyday i wake up at at 5:45 ish go to school go to these hard as clases inluding two ap's, exercise all that good stuff. Then i have to wait for the bus untill 4:17 so i hang wait around chill ya know. Keep in mind i have clubs like 3 times a week or a lot of times i have to get help for homework i dont understand. Now im in charge of painting the mural in my magnets hallway so im tryna get that worked out. Then after doing all this stuff throughout the day i get home at like 5:30 ish (same time my mom gets home)do homework sometimes i dont if i really dont feel like it. Wash dishes or whatever bs they think up talk on aim watch some tv go to sleep. On weekends i really dont do much just lay around the house. I cant remeber the last time i went out with my friends and had fun like im so not exaggerating. Me and my best friend use to stay on the phone untill like 2 in the morning now we hardly talk. I hardly talk to anyone on the phone anymore. Sometimes i do world vision stuff community work etc. Then the cherry on the motherfuking sunday on the only days off i have friday and saturday i go to friggin church on a friday and saturday night! WTF! Then on Saturday my dad doesnt like me to sleep late says i dont do enough to be that tired. Are you serious. All in all im a good ass busy ass child. I dont talk to a lot of guys cause i dont like many at my school and im always to busy never do i have time to just chill. Oh and i completly forgt ASB and all the stuff i gotta do for them. Im not tryna make it seem like im this poor little child i know i got it better than lots of people and i realy do appreciate my parents but their really pissing me off with this underworked shit. Especially cause i bring home bomb ass grades dont do anything bad. I promise im such a good child. I should fly off the handle and say Fuck It. Lets See how they like me then.

I guess Will Smith was right when he said parents just dont understand

G.H.E.T.T.O.

So Im on the comp. searching the internet aimlessly before i started listening to Hucklebery finn on audio book for english and i come across this article Are "Black Books" Necessary? Basically it was saying that the "ghettonizing" of books helps the sale, and a lot of times when books by black authors are not advertised as "black" they dont do good in sales. The article brought up the question of, Is it even neccesary to have a black setion. Now that i think about it there is no like asian section or even white section. Black people are the only ones who seem to be excluded. I personally find it embarassing when i walk into Barnes and Noble and see all these great books with awesome artsy covers and cool names and then you get to the black section and its like "Chocolate thunder" or "Guarding his body" or "Maried to the Game" with some oversexed 1/2 naked bitch on the cover. Its like wtf it makes us look ever so ignorant. I mean im not saying all black books are like that but a big majoriy of them are, and it kinda embarassing. Now ill get of my high horse cause i know ive read some of those books and i must admit theyre entertaining as hell. I guess it like gossip girl in a way i mean gossip girl is in no way intellectualy stimulating but its entertaining as a mug. But white people dont get that negative conotation. If we had a show like gossip girl geared to black culture im pretty sure it would be called ghetto. not much i can do about it anyways.Just thought i would share that with the world.

Dope

Ok so this is some work by LA based graffiti artist Retna. His shit is so tight. My friend tyler put me up on him she an artist and really into graffiti. She always puts me on good shit dont tell her I said that though it would so go to her head lol

Hows Your Mind

I love Atmosphere. There really one of the best groups in hip hop. I would so put them up there with Outkast The Roots A tribe Pharcyde Wu Tang etc. But its like they're even more than that. They've almost surpassed hip hop. Critics have been know to call them emo hop but i dont like that conotation it makes them seem kinda cheesy. Cheesy they are not geniuses yes but emo no. They really spit some of the realest most poetic shit ive ever heard "made a date with divinity but she wouldnt let me fuck" but enough of my rant. Here are the lyrics from one of my favorite songs by them called Like The Rest of Us off their album When Life gives You lemons paint that Shit Gold.(great album by the way Buy It!)

Lyrics to Like The Rest Of Us

[Verse 1:]See I've been here for thirty-some years

Lookin' at myself in the same dirty mirror

So it ain't like I don't comprehend

Open that bottle, swallow that friend

No crime to take a little too much

Got time to drink away a few months

Got a little cocaine habit

But he says he only does it if somebody else has it

Go do that shit, do that shit, lady

She went vegetarian for the baby

Third trimester, I see the kid kick

She showed me outside when she gave me a cigarette

Shit, there's no way to measure it

Not every pony grows up to be a pegasus

Ya gotta let people be hypocrites

Count your blessin's and mind yo business

[Chorus: x2]

Stuck with yourself like the rest of us

Dirt gets done and then we back to dust

Runnin' in place

Sun in my faceLet me fly 'way

Heaven won't wait

Heaven won't wait

Let me fly 'way

Get in my way

Everyday

Heaven won't wait

Let me fly 'way

Get in my way

Everyday

[Verse 2:]

Just tryna keep my mind on work

It's like that's the only way to love this life on Earth

It's like everyone takes number one in the race

'Cause we all keep runnin' in place

Here kitty kitty, can't train that fox

Must be drinkin' that name brand scotch

All of us cut from the same damn cloth

Some of us never cut the price tags off

She ended up on the pole

With her heels pointin' at her Jesus she used to know

Stripped her down to her naked body

We made her drown in a lake full of patriarchy

In between the pride and the misery

With the infinite supply of sympathy

Are these invisible walls that hold me

Like this goldfish bowl is the whole sea

[Chorus: x2]

Stuck with yourself like the rest of us

Dirt gets done and then we back to dust

Runnin' in placeSun in my face

Let me fly 'wayHeaven won't wait

Heaven won't waitLet me fly 'way

Get in my wayEveryday

Heaven won't wait

Let me fly 'way

Get in my wayEveryday

Hows your mind.... blown?

You know what really Grinds my Gears

So ive been anoyed with so much shit lately i just had to do a post and rant about all the stuff im too nice to say in real life.

• Why do people get so serious and extra'd out over little stuff. Like seriously ready to fight and cussing people out and stuff. Wtf its never that serious, calm ya ass.
• Why do people talk about random motherfuckas like literally soembody will be walking past and people will just start ragging on them. Ooh she so "doo doo" blah blah blah. Like shut up! Did Jane/Jon Doe say anything to you? Then why are you so concerned with how they're living their life. And unless your flippin Jesus or something theres nothing that gives you the right to talk about people. at least talk about folks you dont like not some random innocent bystander
• Why do people do post on blogs like Supreme fall 08 or Diamond, or Freshjive etc. and thats all. Like thats it.. no explanation no comments nothing about what they like about it. Just a picture arent blogs supposed to be somewhere to express your opinions. And to be honest street wear is nice but its not all what people crack it up to be. I dont know maybe it lost some of its mojo cause its the new hypebeast thing to do?
• I hate people who never ever talk to you but they randomly do when they see you with someone popular or with a nice outfit on or they want something. Stop It Aqui.
• Dont wear uggs and shorts with a tank top and a scarf on thats stupid.
• Dont stare at me especially if your a girl
• I hate the Grove its so played and theres nothing to do, yet everyone seems to wana go there =/
• Dont steal my shit poems sayings music magazines etc. (basically anything i put you on) and try to act like you knew about it all along. I dont mind sharing the love cause others share it with me. but seriously dont try and turn it arond to make yourself look cooler. thats not cool
• Dont wear shirts with bands groups singers etc that youve heard only like 1 song by. Thats such a slap in the face to real fans
• Dont keep saying how your so ugly when you know your ass is atrractive and just want me to tell you how pretty/handsome you are.
• Dont criticize people when you know you couldnt do half of what they do " Who deserves 5 mics who deserves 2 but the nigga with the 2 mics still could serve you"-Ice Cube
• Walk your Talk

Well i really needed to get that off my chest. now i can breathe easy. Untill next time

PS. Obama is the President =D

Call Me Ishmael

So heres one of my poems =)

Call Me Ishmael

A deep rooted sense of uneasiness

An outsider in my own rightCall me ishmael.

I don't belong here. I don't belong there.

I don't deserve this that or the other.

The pen is my lover. We walk roads.

Paths filled with faces that change with the scenery.

Where purple is green to me. There is no up so I get the fuck down on the mic on the stage put the pen to my page and just be.

That's where I belong. That's whats home to me. A sea of words surround me. I play connect the dots with the punctuation.

Which turn to musical notes and then I play them. Still I am not happy.

As Jaded as I've always been.

The pursuit is all I can hope for. The chase is as good as it gets. And as I listen the rift begins to make me cry.

I guess a twinkle in an eye is just a twinkle in an eye.

more to come....

Dont Call It A Comeback

I been gone for a minute now im back with the jumpoff. As you may have noticed ive been gone for a while. There was some technical difficulty and i just didnt feel like blogging. Well since ive been gone theres been some pretty fun stuff going down. There was homecoming, kickbacks, Seattle, and Halloween. I have no pictures as of right now, but i will post like a compilation sooner or later. Ive realized a lot of shit about my life on my blogging hiatus. Why cant we all be chill and ourselves. Everyone especially in LA is tryna flaunt and be the baddest bitch and that "nigga." Like who cares you met (insert random celebrity here) or whoever your bragging about meeting. (Random Celebrity) didnt give you any money or a job your just a face to (random celebrity) .Or all these go green smell flower kids. Dude honestly that shit is really trendy. A trend that is actually good for this world but a trend nonetheless. And please dont go around talking about peace love and happiness when your talking about people behind their backs and other shady shit. Like being super excited to see me when we were never really all that cool..=/ Dont get me wrong im no angel and i talk about people all the time, but its usually people i dont like and i never was involved with this peace sign go green smell flowers stuff. Well wait i do have a really cool ass bracelet with a bunch of peace signs and a go green bag i got from my internship with J Brand. Does tha make me a hypocrite? I guess were all hypocrites in some way or another. Anyways my point is im at a spot where i honestly have amazing friends and family and i dont need anymore. I mean it would be great if i could meet people who were equally as awesome as I =)..but i dont need to. I love my life. Oh and heres a random picture of me. In case you forgot what i look like.